An insight into the nature of truth and reality which is!

There is nothing else to this universe. No logic no philosophy no reason for it's existence. It simply is. And no one can tell why it is there and from whence it came and where it will end. It is without beginning or end and always somewhere in between. Imagine a point on the circumference of a circle. how far ahead or behind is it? no other reference point exists. But circle shrinks and collapse into the center. Now only that point remains. The circle was a projection of itself. A point transcends all spatial dimensions. Now, will there be yet another cycle after this one. And does it run in cycles after cycles endlessly without begining and without end. If there is one cycle, it naturally follows that there must be a series of cycles separated by nothingness a moment of emptyness as the one you experience in between two breaths. The in and the out breath separated by a pause at either end. both mark the same point. One of point of expansion the other of point of contraction. One the going Inward introspection, other the going outward projection. it's a cycle with really only one base. The two apparent points are actually only one. The place a 'son of man can lay his head' or ' the only refuge'. like a mathematical wave. A wave is really a cirlcle. Imagine a sequence of numbers extending from point zero to +infinitiy and - infinity on either end of the entire number spectrum. In other words there is no limit to expansion but there is a limit to contraction as it will end in zero. Resolution of negatives with positives will result in nirvana. From whence all this apparition emerged and exists relative to one another only. Once resolved into each other , it's as if they never existed. They are at once both evolved and resolved at the same time. Their perception depends on the subject. If you are aware of the snake then you are not aware of the rope and vice versa. past and future blend into the present from whence they are projected and emerge and go back into. past and future already exist simultaneously in the present. There is nothing outside of the present. Time difference is same as space difference. They are one and the same thing. what exists is only one from the point of view of the present. time ticked is space traversed. Imagine a wormhole. only 10 numbers exist from zero to 9. they are the chakras on your spine each indicating a different stage of life , a different energy level or vibration of existance.

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Shiva and Shakti

Shiva is male and shakti is female principle in general. Shiva is potential and Shakti is kinetic energy. Source of Shakti is Shiva (Shiva is the repository of Shakti) but Shakti is the expression of Shiva and Shiva can be known and experienced only through Shakti. Shiva is integration and Shakti is differentiation in calculus. Shakti is the dazzle and shiva is the spectator. Shiva is jiva and Shakti is Maya. Shiva is in bondage of Kali, an ignorant aspect of Shakti. Kali is in full control of Shiva when she dances on the non moving inert body of Shiva. Kali represents lower sexuality and death and suffering. Shiva's inert body is lying in disarray in the chamber of muladhara controlled by Kali.

Space time continuam is not distorting. It appears to only. as it appears to regress away. into the distant haze we call the past. just new waves of vrittis and vishay continuously arising and being formed due to momentum from previous reactions (it's a begining unknown action/reaction chain like ..B-A-B-A-B... pattern link chain. It's like a chicken/Egg only one exists, both manifestations of the same thing. Same like purusha/prakriti) This is pushing out the older vritti gradually out of the domain of the present. Thereby it appears deformed and gets more and more abstract and blurry. If refrained from further reaction, the fresh waves eventually dies out revealing identity with ocean. man is always walking with back to the future and shining the torch in front of him to the past. that's the view of relative consciousness.


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Color of panchbhutas . they are colorless. Like the clear and pure mind. The colors of rainbow from Darkness – VIBGYOR – Darkness. Somewhere in middle of this visible spectrum is White (Colorless light). Somewhere in the middle of  dark spectrum is pitch black(utter emptiness but inert, ignorant) exactly opposite 180 degrees to the colorless light (vast emptiness but aware, with knowledge of whole being). Infact is the same point as the one opposite but just unaware of itself. Equilibrium is achieved when your feet matches the pace of the spinning wheel at the very pinnacle , this is absolute state. You realize that neither the wheel was spinning nor the feet was moving. It was only the mind moving (by identifying with the vrittis) but my being never moved. Whenever you express or suppress a wave (try to grasp or resist and push away) you create a natural reaction from the wave (call it resilience or buoyancy) and it magnifies manifold , increases in wavelength and becomes grosser and more material (matter,external). Should be detected while it is still high frequency, micro and subtle level (microcosm) to be able to observe and grapple with it.

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Anti matter dark energy is responsible for the big bang. It’s the one creating differentiation between different celestial matter and pushing them apart. It creates ether (but not directly). It is the cause of  ether (space, but space and time are same thing perceived differently. ) and fire (stars such as cosmic objects) and air (super heated gaseous material) and water (liquid and moisture) and finally earth(metals and non metals etc..). So the universe is formed out of the Panchabhuta. From Manas , there is a seed of illusion or ignorance in the form of Ahankara (confusion, doubt, false identification of one’s existence,personality). This energy differentiates and pushes away and divides against oneself (purusha sukta) there by creating space (and t ime) . Thus is the birth of Akasha(ether). From ether fire (sun) is born. With birth of light , eyes are formed. From sun’s heat is born Vayu (Air) (convection etc..) From Wind is born  Water element. (Condensation/ rain etc..) and From Jal (water element) is born Bhumi (Earth). All living beings are little universes within themselves.

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Regulated breathing is tantra (tan + tra = through body). Pain and pleasure should be observed equanimously. Pleasure is perceived as high frequency waves. It is more waves packed in the same wave length. Pain is perceived as high wavelength and slow moving, hence perceived as high frequency negative waves (owing to comparing with past experience of pleasure in subtle form). Both are perceptions. What always exists is only straight line (like the heart beatings of a dead patient). It is manufactured into both high and low frequency waves. Only when it is slow moving , you perceive it as moving in negative direction when compared to past experience of fast moving pleasure waves. In Pleasure more waves mean more breaths (harder breathing). In Pain fewer waves mean (slower breath, in terms of great pains and stress, you almost forget to breathe even for a long time). In tantra the breath is kept stable and uniform and mind is in equilibrium.(stita pragna from gita). The practice of this alone will take to the final point of disappearance and cessation of all perceptions of waves. It’s the process of resolving back all mental vrittis arising out of Ahankara (read above paragraph) and thereby exposing Ahankara(which in reality has no existence and cannot stand by itself without the mental vrittis supporting and sustaining it). With the cessation of Ahankara will come the cessation and dissolution of all gross matter (solidified (very slow moving) waves running on momentum of past vrittis).

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Some times you think you have figured out pain and pleasure etc.. But there is no rational reason for pain. But there is a cause for every pain. And this cause has nothing to do with any grandiose purpose of alerting you to lead a noble life etc.. But yes, it’s up to you to alter your attitude towards the pain and thereby ascend to sublime and more skillful ways of accepting the pain. The pain by itself has no ulterior motives intended for you to learn. It’s just the effect of a certain cause that you set in motion perhaps sometime in the distant past. Now it’s again up to you to deal with it but this time you should not REACT to it , with aversion etc..(which will become the cause of another round of future effect). So when you don’t react to it this time and instead face it squarely and wholly, completely, totally, with complete acceptance, acknowledging it but not swayed by it’s effects, witnessing it objectively, in choice less awareness, equanimously, with balance and composure knowing fully well, that ‘this too will pass’ , everything is impermanent and in a state of flux and the only constant is change. But don’t be impatient for it to pass. Let it pass now , in 2 seconds or in 2 Yugas (aeons), be with a heroic attitude. be patient and enjoy watching it. learn from it. embrace it. accept it. be one with it. since it is your present. And it is all there is now… be whole. In the whole being, there is equal room for both high reason and pure madness. It’s all strewn together, sometimes orderly and sometimes messy. It’s all the same.. so dance away and enjoy and observe and witness this drama that is being played out…don’t be indifferent and don’t wish you would rather not be playing THIS game but some other fantasy game but rather identify completely with the real game that is played out RIGHT NOW (however much aversion though it might seem at first). Stay inside the ring and be a participant in the play, the play of the madmen.. For in here, only the mad are wise and everyone else is sane mad…

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Belief in god or praying(not same as meditating) is a total waste of time and entire exercise in futility. But also it is extremely weakening and falsifying activity. I know I have done it almost all of my life and I been completely disillusioned. There is no god or no other imaginary being out there. It is a complete hoax. I wouldn't even classify it as a 'LIE' because a lie would be the opposite of a truth. something has to exist first for it to then turn into a lie. Where as this idea is a complete bogus. You are and were always alone and that is the truth. whether you warm up to this idea now or later after suffering more setbacks, that's your decision. This God 'drug' is not gonna help anyone in the long run. It will only weaken you and get you lost in the maze of thoughts and emotions.  Then also you have to rely on your own self. all the time and every time. even the smallest of mundane things you have to deal with and take care of yourself to see the result in your life. And how much more so for the bigger things.

Drop the mind. that is the way. live and act in the present. Be whole and identify completely each moment with whatever you are doing but mind is Empty. Feel the freedom of working with no stress. action becomes dynamic almost automatic. There is no space for a future desire or past regret. Action takes place in the present with immediacy and insight not imagination and cogitation, which drains your energies. This is meditation all the waking moments of your life. And one glorious day one moment your mind will totally rest and settle and that instant you will discover IT. 'Tat Twam Asi' !   ( That Thou Are ! )


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